EXCERPT from STILL ALIVE, a novel: Currently available at MALARKEY BOOKS

It is with extreme delight (and a touch of trepidation) that I share with you today’s hot, fresh off the press, excerpt of STILL ALIVE. STILL ALIVE (formerly STARBOI) was long listed by PANK for their Big Book contest in 2020, but it has not yet found a publisher. Not only that, but another excerpt has been accepted for publication with Cosmonauts Avenue for their relaunch.

This book is horny, and sad, and relentless, and it is the first novel I’ve written that I really, truly, am proud of. I believe, deep down, that it will find the right home someday.

Plot synopsis for the whole damn book: STILL ALIVE is an anti-coming of age story told through the fast-paced remembrances of the manic, bisexual V, as she enters a multiple-decade romantic tug-of-war with the charming and withholding LEX. Weighted by the emotional fallout from her parents’ dysfunctional marriage, mother’s addictions, and brother’s temporary escape into eastern religiosity (he’s nicknamed RICHARD GERE), V leaves the Portland, Oregon of her childhood for new roots in New York City, only to find herself further disillusioned. Her gay best friend LEROY has found happiness elsewhere and the city isn’t what it once was. After following her now wife, Lex, to Los Angeles, their relationship survives two affairs, but V ultimately realizes Lex is a person, not an answer, and chooses independence after all. STILL ALIVE is a fervent, 21st century feminist narrative with a surprisingly hopeful end. 

This section comes early in the novel, when V, the narrator (whom Leroy jokingly calls “Sophia”), runs into Lex at a club and falls slowly back into the situationship between them that neither can escape.

Read it and blush.

xo,

LJ

Iconoclastic

POLITICS
Betsy DeVos doesn’t really believe in democracy, at Scalawag Mag by yours truly
Trump doesn’t understand why we had the Civil War
A statement from the Berkeley Antifascists

FILM
Dancing in the Dark, a documentary of the Black and Latino gay club scene in New York. Almost like Paris is Burning for a new generation.
BritishPathe.tv
Vintage Matchbox Cars on the assembly line
Indiscretion of an American Wife, starring Montgomery Clift and Jennifer Jones

ESSAY
Something uneasy in the Los Angeles Air
Crossed wires and community in 19th century dreams
Ghost in the cloud

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Am I Straight?

Am I? No. Are you? Maybe. 

A poem for your survival, regardless:

BARKING
by Jim Harrison
The moon comes up.
The moon goes down.
This is to inform you
that I didn’t die young.
Age swept past me
but I caught up.
Spring has begun here and each day
brings new birds up from Mexico.
Yesterday I got a call from the outside
world but I said no in thunder.
I was a dog on a short chain
and now there’s no chain.

 
And links:
 
TRUMP DUMP
These 80 programs would lose Federal funding under Trump’s proposed budget
Trump is officially under investigation by the FBI for his ties with Russia
Donald Trump is the symptom, not the problem

(UN)SEXY
Livin and Lovin in NYC’s election debrief
The invention of heterosexuality
Youtube is now restricting LGBTQ+ videos, WTF
Chuck Tingle is the greatest author of our generation

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Onward

TRUMP
Kate McKinnon plays the piano and sings a tearful Hallelujah as Hillary Clinton (and makes me cry)
Williamsburg, Brooklyn voted for Trump
Judith Butler on Trump, Germany’s Willkommenskultur, and radical Democracy
16 writers on Trump’s America

LESSER KNOWN AMERICAN HISTORY
“The earliest record of an Indian traveling to the USA is that of a young Indian man from Madras who may have visited Massachusetts in 1790. As Salem developed its trade with India during the next decade, young Indians worked on the India wharves at Crownshield and Derby, two of the larger shipyards. In 1851, six Indians marched in the Salem Fourth of July parade under the banner of the “East India Marine Society”. Most of these men are believed to have married American women of African origin and integrated themselves into that community.”

PREP
Autocracy: Rules for Survival
How to encrypt your entire life in less than an hour

LA MUSICA
This Land is Your Land
The story of Ella and Louis (one of the greatest albums of all time), 60 years later
Kulning demonstration (watch to the end)
The “I was not a Nazi” Polka

DOING BETTER
Wancy Young Cho on racism in the male gay community
A list of pro-woman, anti-bigotry, pro-earth, pro-immigrant organizations that need your help

FUN
A street dog gets adopted, become L.A. foodie cutey
Start your week (every week) with a map!
Hong Kong’s unflappable Starbucks uncle is the hero we all need

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Pro-Tip: email subscribers click title for “I Want a President” by Zoe Leonard, 1992

BE BOLD

According to Agnes de Mille:

“The greatest thing [Martha Graham] ever said to me was in 1943 after the opening of Oklahoma!, when I suddenly had unexpected, flamboyant success for a work I thought was only fairly good, after years of neglect for work I thought was fine. I was bewildered and worried that my entire scale of values was untrustworthy. I talked to Martha. I remember the conversation well. It was in a Schrafft’s restaurant over a soda. I confessed that I had a burning desire to be excellent, but no faith that I could be. Martha said to me, very quietly: “There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep yourself open and aware to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open… No artist is pleased. [There is] no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.””

INSPIRATION
How is literary success defined?
Moonshots: how to make them
16 uncomfortable feelings that actually indicate you’re on the right path
Ira Glass on taste and the creative process
How should one read a book? by Virginia Woolf
Why the pressure to be happy is driving people mad

SLACKS
First episode of TAKE MY WIFE, the new FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC show by Cameron Esposito and Rhea Butcher
Vintage photos of lesbians
Baroness Von Sketch video of hilarity
More vintage photos of lesbians
FUCK YEAH androgynous girls

BE CONCERNED
The CIA is lying to the President and functioning as its own wing of government outside the purview of the Constitution

LA MUSICA
Soy yo
Luchin
Rhiannon Giddens wins the Steve Martin Prize for Excellence in Banjo and Bluegrass

SCIENCE
Dolphins recorded having a conversation for the first time
Great diagrams in anthropology, linguistics, and social theory
NASA photos

Image Credit and link to more sexy Rhea Butcher and Cameron Esposito
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